There comes a time when a person must choose to deal with strife, or turn tail and run. I am a runner. I can handle a bad cup of coffee. An uncomfortable chair at the movie theater. I can look at a child screaming in the seat next to me on a ten hour flight and smile. These are not worth getting worked up. Lack of communication is what gets me. Putting too much effort into a friend that doesn’t deserve it, and getting nothing back.
This is why I own a very fast car, but never push the limits unless I’m by myself. My goal in pushing the limits is not to draw attention, or show off. The truth is speed is where I find the freedom. Flirting with being out of control. A mix of fear and elation.
This is also why I never really plan on going on wild and crazy vacations, but somehow find myself in a foreign place several times a year. Often without a plan. Throwing myself into potentially difficult situations has led me to a basic faith that I will find the good in strangers. There have been times this has burned me. Without it, however, I never would have found the amazing friends I have all over the world.
When does the running stop? I have come to the conclusion that running is not a solution. But a very good distraction. Do I run until I am broke and running is no longer an option? Or, do I burden myself with debt so that I am chained to a job, and a city. Maybe there is no easy solution.
All I know is I want to run NOW. Blindly run. Trusting that wherever I run I will witness something amazing. Not knowing what it might be.